Broken Wings Broken Angel

 

I said to myself nobody could ever break me,

My mind is so powerful and strong,

My heart is like a diamond and titanium,

That is unbreakable and indestructible.

But I was wrong…

Because at this moment…I’m broken!!!

 

Like a broken doll that is unrecyclable,

Like a broken glasses that cannot be restored,

Like a withered rose that cannot be unwither

Like a computer that cannot be reformat,

The damaged was done and cannot be undone.

Yes, I’m broken.

 

Wings were torn apart, heart was broken

My shadow is even paler and wanted to run apart,

But the chains are huge and heavy

That is so painful every time I try

Heavy rains continue falling down

The flood is getting higher

Lightning and thunderstorm are getting stronger

And I always died every time it hit me

Through the heart and soul

But like a zombie I always get up again and again

And again and again

Because I’m dumb and numb enough to tolerate the pain

But the question is… How long?

 

I have chosen the wrong path

And it’s too late to go back

And now I’m lost in my journey

All I see is shallow and darkness

I chill whenever I shiver

It’s so damn cold here

It’s the end of the journey

Another one begin

But the question is…

Where will I go?

 

 

 

 

 

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When an Angel Come to Me

 

Today, on the 29^th of June… I saw the Angel come to me.

His Eyes is like a shining star that shines in a different way

Words cant describe the sparkle I see in his eyes

The pretty innocent face that is indescribable

And when I held him in my arms… And feel the angels breath

Running through my ears… I feel like,

 Heaven sent me the greatest gift that no one can ever have.

 

God sent me an Angel that saves my life

From never ending sorrow and pain

An Angel that gives me the reason to live an immortal life

A life that can never be replace by a life of a Princess

Or even a Queen or a Conqueror.

 

My Son…. My Angel….

Happy Birthday my Baby…

Words cant express how much I love you..

I made this poem especially for my only sister in her birthday, happy birthday sis…

this is my present to you, hope you like this poem because I made this from the bottom of my heart.

One cold night in the middle of February,
The air is freezing even though summer is approaching,
I went outside the garden, where my roses are slowly vanishing
As I watch the petals waving goodbye,
I realized they were just travelling beyond the horizon
I took a glimpse in the sky and saw something beyond the clouds
The moon and the north star shining together
They are like twins that can never be apart
They sparkle together and bestow inspiration
Just like the two of us, aside of sharing the same DNA
And have the same the same origin,
We are completely different,
But we are unique in our own way,
You’re like the moon and I’m the North Star
You are extrovert and I’m introvert
You can move mountain by your bare hands,
And I can hardly break the glass..
You are like the super hero in the movie
And I’m a helpless extra that needs help,
Yes, you are always there with a helping hand
Through all the years even though you are miles away
And even though we sometimes offended each other
And sometimes hurt each other unintentionally
I never get furious and angry with you
And I hated myself that moment when you boarded the plane
Without uttering the words “I’m Sorry”
I wanted to embraced you that moment and say how sorry I am
For being obtuse and dim-witted
I never intend of hurting the people around me
I cried in my bed upon reading your letter.
And I despised myself that moment….
You just don’t know how grateful I am being your sister
Beyond the sea I know that you were there somewhere
In front of your monitor always blogging and googling
I whisper in the wind to tell you how much I miss you
The anguish of being apart broke my heart,
But I know that you’re just spreading your wings
And reaching high to achieve every aspiration in life
I’m very proud of you; I don’t often tell you this but…
You are still the sister I want to have
Beyond life and life beyond
The roses will fade…. the orchids will die…
But my love for you will linger on..
No matter how far apart
I will always love you, my one and only sister.
I’m just a face book away from you
Have a very wonderful birthday.
Yo Te amo
Aesteru yo
Mi amor
I love you

lost angel

                            

     Infinite Emptiness is  always how I feel,

          Unstoppable tears always  covering                                                                       my eyes,

     Undying hatred wallowing my mind,

           cold blood flowing through my veins,

    Never, I feel the beating of my heart.

            

                            I always feel my agitated nerves, 

                                  Always trying to calm the blood running through my veins,

                                          Because it is running fast like a lava flowing down,

                                  I always feel like a volcano ready to explode.

                               

                                                Rough roads always on my path,

                                        My journey always Snowy and foggy,

                                              And at the end of the road, there's  a sign, 

                                                                       "Dead-end" .

                           

                                                  I'm always lost in my journey,

                                              But cannot stop until I find the "Sanctuary".

                                                Even though, obstacles comes my way,

                                                 The Journey  continue.....

                                

                            I can't remember the last time I saw the sun set,

                                    I didn't even remember the the first time I saw the sun shine,

                             Neither the first time I saw the depth of the ocean,

                                    The only  thing i remember is the first time I saw you.

                            When I look into your eyes, I saw a flickering light,

                                         It's like I saw the eyes of an angel, looking back at me,

                              I can't take off my eyes on you, even the smile on my face,

                                        And for the first time ever, I feel that I'll never be lost again.

                              

                                             You will be my compass through my Journey,

                                          You will be my guide to all my turns left or right,

                                               You will be my Map to all my routes,

                                               You will be my GPS, to all the roads ahead.

                                                Because of you, my life never again empty, 

                                               You dried the tears covering my eyes,

                                               and you heat the blood running through my veins,

                                              And finally, my heart beats again....

      

                                              I'm not an empty soul anymore,

                                              I'm not lost anymore.....

                                               I finally found my Angel,

                                               "My Sanctuary. "

          I dedicate this poem for my son and my angels, they are my inspiration. I made this poem in the middle of the night, with a moonlight coming through the window,  with a very silent night outside, ( nakakabinging katahimikan ika nga) I can't hear even the insects,probably they're already asleep, I only hear the sound of the wind and the sounds of the leaves and grass.             

                            

Passion

Chocolates.... chocolates.... is my passion! yes I love chocolates. I eat chocolates everyday to start a beautiful and happy day. Chocolates calm my nerves and gives me energy... hnnmmnnn... nakakarelax. When you have a problem or thinking for a solution or let's say you're in big trouble, have a bite and then..... there it is! a good solution, right.? It helps you think good. Especially, those who wants to quit smoking its a good alternative too. I red in a magazine that dark chocolates helps normalize blood pressures. Except diabetic person it's not recommended, right guys? So... what are you waiting for? Have a bite!!.. Just don't forget to share it with me...L...O...L

book worm

We are now in a computer world, Where everything is digital and robotics. Everyone have their own gadgets cellphones, mp4, computers etc... but there are some people are still reading books, not just internet's... but books! Every member of my family still love books... We have the "Harry Potter collections" by J. K Rowling, such as Harry Potter And the Sorcerer's stone, The Chamber of Secrets, The Prisoner Of Ascaban, The Goblet of Fire, The Order Of The Phoenix, The Half Blood Prince, and The Deathly Hollows. We have also Encyclopedia, Dictionary, pocket books etc...I love the sound of the flipping pages and the smell of it. I love reading books. 

text addict

text everywhere...anywhere... texting at sm sta rosa

computer geek

He's only 2years old but look at him he already knows how to use a computer, even the icon of the game's that he like, he knows how open it (double click) I f his sister will got off the computer chair to get something he will run and minimized the work of his sister and double click his favorite game(plants and zombies). And when you call us on the phone,you cannot talk to anybody but him.

an angels journey taken by wall e

miracle

my mom.... She's my guardian angel...the best mother in the world and in the universe, even in the entire galaxy and milky way. She is a true hero, a real living hero. She raised us up when we are down.. she gave her all for us... no exact word to describe her . nobody can compare her... thank you very much for everything... love you...

I believe in miracle... because it really happened to us... and it will happen to anybody if... you have "faith".My mother got sick ... and we got her to the hospital.. She got an operation in the small intestine. after a week in the hospital we are discharge.but we have to go back in the hospital because she started vomiting again... we spend a month in the hospital but the doctors are confused because they can see nothing wrong, She's been through a lot of tests...and i mean a lot.. endoscopy, colonoscopy twice, ct scan twice, ngt (a plastic hose to her nose all the way through her stomach.) but every test turns out to be negative. She's still vomiting green liquids. The doctors says she's not supposed to be like that..and that her case is rare. Her intestines are working properly now but what is wrong with her? I'm desperate, a lot of stress , and starting to loose hope... I cried in the car every time i go home to take a every night... I attend the "simbang gabi" binuo ko yun.. Even my priest cousin go to my mom in the hospital to give her a "santo olyo" and a prayer twice. When my sister in law's father died, i travel to pangasinan para makiramay and pray that he take my mother's sickness with him to his journey to God. And together with my kids we go to the famous "Our Lady of Manoag" church to pray for miracle...I even ask my sister in japan to come home... to help me with mom we cried on the phone, she's the one supporting us the money we need. One night when i am in the canteen's hospital eating my dinner, ( i don't eat inside the room in front of her because she can't eat food) my sister in law arrived to help me watch her at night so i can get a sleep, she told me that she's impress of the nurses here coz they are very kind. I ask why, she said " when i arrived here in the room last night mother is sleeping and a nurse is watching her at bedside, she's kind to watch her in her sleep." I told her last night when you arrived i was in comfort room and no nurse is inside the room, i should know when a nurse will come coz they always call me upon entering and the comfort room is inside the room beside the front door. she said "I really saw a nurse wearing white uniform watching her.sitting at the bedside". I figured "she" is her guardian angel. And then miracle happened... my mom got better.... just got better... and until now she is still strong serving in the church as president of a religious organisation "Apostolado ng Panalangin" still active, alive and kicking. It happened 5 to 6 years ago... and still fresh in my memory.. I thank the Lord for everything and giving her back to us.

my sis

my one and only sister... she's currently residing in Japan. i misses her a lot. we used to hang out together.... gimik's , disco, watching live bands, watching videos, movies,, swimming.. ballroom dancing,, bar hopping, eating, drinking (eventhough i don't drink he he ) and a lot of fun... yes.. i really miss having a sister like her.. love you sis.....

father and son

father and son.... they misses each other. Cedric always hoping to see his dad soon whenever he see Anjo Yllana on tv he always say that that's my papa. He miss his papa very much. papa is travelling from Asia to Europe but he never failed on asking about his son.

fourth angel

this is Sean Cedric, my fourth angel. hes very cute and very " makulit" he always follows me wherever i go. when im cooking he's there, when i'm in the bathroom even when taking a piss.. he always follows me. he cries when i'm not around.

a guardian angel

guardian angel...

every person have a guardian angel. protect you from a devil with in. they cry when the devil wins. they laugh when you do good things. they gain powers through your good deeds and they loose their powers whenever you do bad things. and they fade away when you go to the dark side.

three angels

my three angels.....these angels guides me through my journey....i have a lonely life, my childhood is full of challenges, my mom suffered a lot raising her four children... alone! but she did a good job. my angels made me a complete person, they made me feel alive to continue struggle to life. they made me a stronger person ready to face the battle of life.they are my secret weapon that nobody have.. even "dumbledore" dont have a weapon like mine. they are my lights through a dark journey.... and they are my rides whenever rough roads comes my way... they are my shield inside the arena that no enemy could hurt me. yes... with these angels around me.......yes.... i'm immortal.

sean cedric loves cars

he loves cars..... cars ..... and cars........

cute angel

look at my cute angel... he's growing up so fast. getting bigger and stronger... he's so" malambing" lovable and huggable. but sometimes very naughty ohhh... not sometimes naughty at all times. he he when i'm tired of all the household chores his kisses take everything away.. refresh the day.

when an angel came to me

my fourth angel came to my life.. he fills all the emptiness inside my heart. he saves my life from a serious illness. he save me from an undying loneliness that i dont know where it came from. yes... loneliness came even when i' m happy...funny is'nt it? but its the truth. he is an angel that God given me.